Having to bear those pains . Its really unbearable . Its th same pain im having as you towards th other girl . I totally donthave th courage to tell you . I dont even dare to say Hello to you . Not face to face even . Its only online yet its so difficult for me to type "HELLO" to you . Im afraid those things tht i dontwant to happen happens . Im really afraid . its just a lil' fairytale from you tht im asking for . I wasnt a good girlf at all . I have been always throwing tantrums(?) on you , not because i dont love you . Its because im afraid to lose you . You did say tht sentence to me before . To me , youre everything . Without you , i cannot imagine how life would be , totally . I really wished you would read this post . Its really from deep down of my heart . If thr's one day tht i can coincidentally meet you , i think i would cry . Everytime i try to forget you , all those happy memories will flash back . Its really pain ): When oh when will you read my blog . Getting attention from you is a really dumb thing to do . All i want from you is to talk to me like a normal friend . Yet this simple task from you , also cannot grant it . Nicochia , its been long since i've received a sms from you , Please boy . dont treat me like this . Sigh . Nico ... I really wish to tell you my feeeelings . Ohgod . Please i really do . I dontknow if god is trying to tell me tht he's giving me a chance . I dontknow if god is trying to tell me tht YOU'RE giving me a chance . I dontknow at all . I need YOU to tell me . When . When . I seriously cannot forget you . I'll swear to heaven&god . Tht one day , VERYVERY one day . I spill my feelings out to you . No matter how long it takes , i promise i will !
Please Nico . Its just a small lil' chance tht im asking for :(
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