How i wished you could stop talking bout her .
How i wished you could stop thinking bout her .
How i wished she would just dissapear from your life .
How i wished !
Though i know thr's no happy ending ,
I want you to know what im thinking ):
I want you to know tht w/o her , you still got me .
I want you to know tht w/o her , you still can live on .
I want you to know tht w/o her , thr's other people outside .
"U promised me not to let me go forever, but in the end, u left me alone..."
You written this on your pm .
Are you tht sure shes tht important in your heart ?
Shes obviously playing your feelings .
Boy , please wake up from your dreams .
& come into reality .
I know fantasies are beautiful & reality is ugly .
But you've got to face it boy ):
Iwantyou back .
I reallly reallly reallllllyyy do ):
7:49 PM
Is it a law to love someone ?
If it is , i think i am willing for a life sentence .
Lots of people say nico is a peice of crap .
Fine . I tried thinking tht way too ?
But i know its just a big fat lie .
Its so hurting lying to myself .
& Do you know how it feels like when your love's girlf says iloveyou in public ?
Do you know how it feels like when your love just totally ignores you & cares only bout his girl ?
Its terrible , x/3
When i am with you , you didnt give a damn to anything .
But to her , you even want to give your life up .
Is she tht good ? Do you know you've hurt me very deeply ?
She gives me th impression of a prostitude getting a gigolo's attention .
i'm pretty sure youre not tht person .
So stop falling into her trap .
Its all just a lie .
Sorry nico . I love you too deeply .
Even if you tell me i suck/youhateme/fxxk out of your life ,
Its still no use . My love for you is just fixed .
Down deep deep in my heart .
9:05 PM
roars .
I can say i didnt really enjoyed my trip .
Whole trip i was thinking bout nico .
dont say me luh , i forget abit le then my bloody family will like say : i feel tht you still like nico .
then i will umchio lah -.- bloody fool . but inside my heart in bleeding alright .
I really want you to know how i feel . i swear boy .
You added my sweetheart , something i dontwish it to happen .
I just want you to have a good conversation with me for now .
I cannot think too far .
Th further i think , th more hurt im going to get .
& i know it ):
Niconiconiconiconico . Why are you so perfect .
Okay . you might not be perfect , but i dontmind .
Cos too me , youre alr perfect enough .
Youre th kind of guy who will leave deeepdeeep impressions on me .
Youre th only guy who can do tht .
YOUre th one WHO defined love to me .
iloveyou alot . i dontknow why .
reallyreallyreally .
When ytd i found out you added my sweetheart , i was like .. shitshitshit .
but nvm . its just friends i know .
i also know my sweetheart wont betray me .
i ALSO know tht SHE wont fall in love with LOOKS .
NEITHER DO I .
maybe youre cute .
maybe youve got alot of jio-ers .
And also maybe thts why you asked for a break cos im too sticky .
sorry , cos you told me you were afraid to lose me .
& i was ofcos happy . cos i know you cared .
But when days passed , it was th opposite round .
but you dont seemed to care .
Today i on-ed my comp .
Went to a blog .
Saw a post . bloodyhell .
This person .. i dontknow why have to copy whtever i wrote ?
those words ONLY MEANT FOR NICOCHIAYIXIANNNN!
Why do you have to stealll .
i dontunderstand .
roarrrs . make me boil .
nvm !!!! zzz !
nicochia . imy alot lurhs .
sobs .
12:30 PM
Nicochiayixian .
I want you back .
though i know you wont see any of my blogs .
This is th only blog that i'll be writing my feelings out .
Boy , i know you dontknow tht i still have feelings for you .
I also know tht you dont love me anymore .
My relationship with you was only 3weeks .
Those threeweeks was th happiest part of my life .
I am telling th truth .
You might not even treat me a friend now .
But really wish you could know what i'm thinking .
i miss those times when you ask whether i'm sad .
by asking me tht means you know when i am & when i'm not .
Im happy , cause youre really understanding .
You really are a good boyf .
whoever is your next girlf , she is really lucky .
But when you ask me to intro you my sweetheart , i nearly broke down .
You can go find other girls right ?
what if you really go into a relationship with my sweetheart ?
i will really burst into tears immediately .
When th day i told you i wanted a break , you totally didnt care .
Cos i know you dont love me anymore .
I am really a sucker in love .
I still acted strong infront of you .
I'm afraid if i tell you my feelings , th senario would just get worst .
I really dont want tht to happen .
Nicochia , imissyou alotalot .
I know its really just a wishingful thinking .
I know its impossible for you to comeback to me .
But , please ? at least give me a chance to be with you one more time ?
How i wished someone would help me .but i know no one will .Nico, please . Please please. dont be interested in my sweetheart PLEASE !
Youre th first who made me cried for a guy .
Youre th first who made me slit .
Youre th first who made me fell so deep inlove with a guy .
Youre th first to my everything .
Boy ? Please ? Come back to me will you ?
Its been really long .
You dontknow im waiting .
I tried forgetting you .
Really i tried . Alot of ways .
But still , its impossible .
If only you would be beside me , comforting me .
I would be th happiest girl on earth .
Really . But i'll continue to wait , until oneday you'll accept me .
nicochiayixian , ily , imy , iny , iwy )':
I wont mind typing a hundred 'iloveyou' out .
& it wont be copy&paste .
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Please . I dont even mind typing out A THOUSAND iloveyou )':
7:47 PM
ta bu hui shi ge hao nan ren ,ye bu hui shi ge hao qing ren , ni dui wo shuo ,wo men zhi shi cha jian er guo ,hao de nan ren you na me duo ,shao le ta de re zi ye neng guo .wo bu hui zai rang ni ji mo ,ye bu hui rang ni gen nan guo ,ni ting wo shuo ,yao hao hao xue zhe qu sheng huo .jiu suan wei lai ,you duo shao cuo ,zhi shao hai you wo de wen hou,wo de wen rou pei ni du guo ♥Translated :
He is not a good man ,
Neither is he a good lover .
You told me ,
That its just a passerby ,
There are lots of goodman outside ,
Losing him , life still can go on .
i wont let you be bored .
Neither will i let you be sad .
You listen to me ,
Learn to live properly .
No matter how much mistakes there are in life ,
There's still me here ,
giving you comfort .
I've had enough .
Its just time for me to rest .
6:26 PM