Tuesday, June 24, 2008
What should i do .
Every night , i just cannot sleep.
Ohgod . I find tht im taking this too seriously.
It just cannot seemed t be controlled .
Im having some fears tht are just ridiculous .
Also , i have sent an email t him .
Obviously i know he didnt see ,
His best friend , Andrew (: , told me he dont see emails .
Great . & im having fear t be rejected .
Its all natural . Im trying my very veryvery best t forget him .
I tried . Those days which i didnt post , Im trying super hard .
CANNOT . Urghhzxz . I totally have no feel in other guys .
Sigh , i guessed my life is coming t its ending point .
Nico , please make it right , weiting ( gail ) your godsister , is always asking you t give me a chance . Please dont think tht it is me who made her do it . She did it alr then she told me . So i was totally in th dark . But im very curious with your answer . She asked you t give me a chance. & you told her try ? What do you mean by tht ? Means you dont like me ? Means you still like me ? Only wanting me t make th first step ? Means youre trying t force yourself t be with me ? Ohgod . Thr's too much questions in my head . All are question marks . I've yet got even one answer .
Imgoing crazy . Totally lost in my own world ):
8:31 PM
First , i'll reply tags .
Didnt know , will like got people tag ._.
Lol .. Alright :D
Erinlyn`:Yeah , Emo post .
Erinlyn`:Obviously its love, Then i bluff
uh ? =xx
babyRAIN♥: Oh , Hehe . Thanks .
Erinlyn`: Z ? I umchio , can ?
Joy:Honeystead , sometimes things just
cannot say forget then forget one. iloveyoutoo alright :D
Janiceee :D : Hello janice baobei ,
I'll try alright :D
TRECIA:Baobeh x3 Iknowiknow . Somehow i
really just cannot let go .
Passeerby:Hey , Passerby also human luhs :D
Haha . I know . Thanks alright :D
-RAiNE♥-: Life of cos have to go on ..
Ilovemei :D
Irina:I know its not worth . But i seriously
cannot let go . I'll takecare . Ilovedearest !
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Having to bear those pains . Its really unbearable . Its th same pain im having as you towards th other girl . I totally donthave th courage to tell you . I dont even dare to say Hello to you . Not face to face even . Its only online yet its so difficult for me to type "HELLO" to you . Im afraid those things tht i dontwant to happen happens . Im really afraid . its just a lil' fairytale from you tht im asking for . I wasnt a good girlf at all . I have been always throwing tantrums(?) on you , not because i dont love you . Its because im afraid to lose you . You did say tht sentence to me before . To me , youre everything . Without you , i cannot imagine how life would be , totally . I really wished you would read this post . Its really from deep down of my heart . If thr's one day tht i can coincidentally meet you , i think i would cry . Everytime i try to forget you , all those happy memories will flash back . Its really pain ): When oh when will you read my blog . Getting attention from you is a really dumb thing to do . All i want from you is to talk to me like a normal friend . Yet this simple task from you , also cannot grant it . Nicochia , its been long since i've received a sms from you , Please boy . dont treat me like this . Sigh . Nico ... I really wish to tell you my feeeelings . Ohgod . Please i really do . I dontknow if god is trying to tell me tht he's giving me a chance . I dontknow if god is trying to tell me tht YOU'RE giving me a chance . I dontknow at all . I need YOU to tell me . When . When . I seriously cannot forget you . I'll swear to heaven&god . Tht one day , VERYVERY one day . I spill my feelings out to you . No matter how long it takes , i promise i will !
Please Nico . Its just a small lil' chance tht im asking for :(
4:24 PM
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Because of his one sentence ,
only one sentence , it has made my mood from good to boo .
He said : Mayb its fate tat brought us to meet ea other & to be wif ea other ... i still love you ... but sadly ... you have a Boyf alr ...
So fast ? So fast she had a boyf alr ? Whats she ? Super chio girl .
I dontthink so . Chio so ? Can hong arnd ? Still hong arnd th person i love ?
Bloody ass . He used to be a cheerful yet made you turn like mad .
Joan , stop torturing him lahs -.-
You lead your own life , he leads his .
It seems like a love triangle . Sigh . I love him lots , he love her lots .
Whats this . Nvm . Iloveyoualot .
10:18 AM
Saturday, May 31, 2008
How i wished you could stop talking bout her .
How i wished you could stop thinking bout her .
How i wished she would just dissapear from your life .
How i wished !
Though i know thr's no happy ending ,
I want you to know what im thinking ):
I want you to know tht w/o her , you still got me .
I want you to know tht w/o her , you still can live on .
I want you to know tht w/o her , thr's other people outside .
"U promised me not to let me go forever, but in the end, u left me alone..."
You written this on your pm .
Are you tht sure shes tht important in your heart ?
Shes obviously playing your feelings .
Boy , please wake up from your dreams .
& come into reality .
I know fantasies are beautiful & reality is ugly .
But you've got to face it boy ):
Iwantyou back .
I reallly reallly reallllllyyy do ):
7:49 PM
Friday, May 30, 2008
Is it a law to love someone ?
If it is , i think i am willing for a life sentence .
Lots of people say nico is a peice of crap .
Fine . I tried thinking tht way too ?
But i know its just a big fat lie .
Its so hurting lying to myself .
& Do you know how it feels like when your love's girlf says iloveyou in public ?
Do you know how it feels like when your love just totally ignores you & cares only bout his girl ?
Its terrible , x/3
When i am with you , you didnt give a damn to anything .
But to her , you even want to give your life up .
Is she tht good ? Do you know you've hurt me very deeply ?
She gives me th impression of a prostitude getting a gigolo's attention .
i'm pretty sure youre not tht person .
So stop falling into her trap .
Its all just a lie .
Sorry nico . I love you too deeply .
Even if you tell me i suck/youhateme/fxxk out of your life ,
Its still no use . My love for you is just fixed .
Down deep deep in my heart .
9:05 PM
roars .
I can say i didnt really enjoyed my trip .
Whole trip i was thinking bout nico .
dont say me luh , i forget abit le then my bloody family will like say : i feel tht you still like nico .
then i will umchio lah -.- bloody fool . but inside my heart in bleeding alright .
I really want you to know how i feel . i swear boy .
You added my sweetheart , something i dontwish it to happen .
I just want you to have a good conversation with me for now .
I cannot think too far .
Th further i think , th more hurt im going to get .
& i know it ):
Niconiconiconiconico . Why are you so perfect .
Okay . you might not be perfect , but i dontmind .
Cos too me , youre alr perfect enough .
Youre th kind of guy who will leave deeepdeeep impressions on me .
Youre th only guy who can do tht .
YOUre th one WHO defined love to me .
iloveyou alot . i dontknow why .
reallyreallyreally .
When ytd i found out you added my sweetheart , i was like .. shitshitshit .
but nvm . its just friends i know .
i also know my sweetheart wont betray me .
i ALSO know tht SHE wont fall in love with LOOKS .
NEITHER DO I .
maybe youre cute .
maybe youve got alot of jio-ers .
And also maybe thts why you asked for a break cos im too sticky .
sorry , cos you told me you were afraid to lose me .
& i was ofcos happy . cos i know you cared .
But when days passed , it was th opposite round .
but you dont seemed to care .
Today i on-ed my comp .
Went to a blog .
Saw a post . bloodyhell .
This person .. i dontknow why have to copy whtever i wrote ?
those words ONLY MEANT FOR NICOCHIAYIXIANNNN!
Why do you have to stealll .
i dontunderstand .
roarrrs . make me boil .
nvm !!!! zzz !
nicochia . imy alot lurhs .
sobs .
12:30 PM